Our children need us to evolve.

You say you want an evolution?

See, Gandhi was a Revolution
and India revolved
and ended up still
under British Bank Control

The same thing happened with
The American Revolution
The same Bankers have control
... this is our chance to

Evolve

We have the Treaties.

And as a Settler I put my vote with the treaties and demand the same fairness for all Canadians.

If you can see the Big Picture
of our last 500 years
and the History of the last few Decade
and the War on Everything

We can live as gods and goddesses in this Garden by sharing 15% of the wealth. This was "the good life" after WWII when you could make a good living building a car with a cottage, health care, and a retirement package...

But all that has been Inflated away
to end up in the hands
of the Bankers
and we get the Bailouts

Or soon we live off 7% like the rest of the world under control of the Military Industrial Complex.

Iceland did it.

Can we?

Iceland needs us to make it and so does the rest of the world living in poverty.

Our children need us to evolve.

Kisser Orange

Kisser Orange

The original colour of my 69 Camaro was called “Hugger Orange” but like a few things on the car, the cam, the carburetor, the manual transmission and the rear end where not original. I bought it from my cousin and he also repainted it… it had a little more red in it than the original colour. It was most likely the fastest car in my city at the time, though I did lose a couple of times off the start line nothing could touch at 45 mph and up. I had it more balanced as a European car, made for corners, than the usual drag car with big back tires and small front with no control. 

I taught my first girlfriend how to drive in it… she taught me how to kiss. Or at least she was the first girl I kissed. She was a few years younger than me and I took her to graduation. I was very nervous in the parking lot attempting new first inexperienced kiss with someone more experienced than I. So we kissed… and kissed… and finally after about 20 minutes she stopped and said “oh my God!”. And I thought I was doing something horribly wrong even though I thought it felt so good. Instead she told me she was worried at first because I had never kissed anyone before but I was the best kisser ever! I was only doing what she did. I have always been a natural and have a love of kissing that continues to today.

So we spent a lot of time in that car learning to drive and kissing. We had a great friendship, she dated other people, because she was young she said, but we always ended up together. That is until she lied to me and slept with a close friend. Which was funny because we weren’t sleeping together, but not funny because they both lied to me for a few weeks until I found her necklace behind the cushions of his couch.

We had an agreement to always be friends and to meet each September. We had done that for a few years. Then next September she called to meet but I wouldn’t do it. Friends never lie I told her. She had dated other friends and people before and that was fine… but she never lied until that time. 

Years later she came to see me when she was getting married. We had a great conversation and I was able to forgive her… the guy, from seeing what he has turned into, was never worth forgiving.

Last year she called me again. She was restoring a 69 Camaro and wanted to know the paint colour of my car was.

“Kisser Orange” I told her. She called back and said the closest factory colour she could find was called “Hugger Orange”. 

So I teased her about the “kisser” colour and made her promise to pick me up and take me for a drive.

… you never know how you affect people…

The Story of P

In computational complexity theory, P, also known as PTIME or DTIME(nO(1)), is one of the most fundamental complexity classes. It contains all decision problems which can be solved by a deterministic Turing machine using a polynomial amount... of computation time, or polynomial time.

Cobham's thesis holds that P is the class of computational problems which are "efficiently solvable" or "tractable"; in practice, some problems not known to be in P have practical solutions, and some that are in P do not, but this is a useful rule of thumb.

P ( /ˈpiː/; named pee) is the sixteenth letter of the basic modern Latin alphabet.

P as 16 is 1 + 6 = 7.

Seven means:

You are analytical, intellectual, focused, scientific and inventive, contemplative, meditative, spiritual and enigmatic. You are a seeker of truth and an accumulator of knowledge and wisdom.

You prefer working alone and you need space and privacy. You enjoy solitude, but you also like to display your knowledge in public. You are an abstract thinker, you are self-oriented, a perfectionist and you possess great mental strength

P: as in pluck... that's plural for luck. So wish me pluck as i take off like a backword flying wild duck.

P is a voiceless bilabial plosive. Voiceless P:

P also represents the voiceless labiodental fricative. (f) as in ph.

P is powerful and peaceful. http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Powerfully-and-Peacefully/132506896806430

P is also (f) the feminine to the masculine p:

Sept 19, notes from a golf course original send by Blackberry but lost in the ether of the net.

P is for Pkiss and that's plural for kiss, and for passionate kisses; plural for the sharing of a passionate kiss as kissing does take two . While most men come to a golf course to play golf i choose to sit and ponder the perfect grace of a kiss. But then, like Tom Robbins, i'm one of those men that "hates golf, loves women" and would rather be under the influence of a kiss then chase a little ball around a hole under the influence of beer (don't worry Robbins i have also danced with the beer fairies but prefer hope to hops). So rather than practice my putting or driving a bucket o'balls i spent my time pondering the grace of a kiss... or rather the grace of pkissing.

I had an opportunity to try and kiss and smile. It took some practice and persistence to kiss one because i have found that when one approaches a smile with a pucker the smile one is trying to kiss instinctively turns into a pucker sending the smile into hiding. Smiles must be very shy of a kiss even though it is the smile that attracts the kiss. But with repeated effort i was able to actually kiss a smile and it turned instantly into a laugh leaving the smile exposed to be kissed repeatedly resulting in a perpetual smile laughter kissing cycle that was very hard to end… and not because I wanted it to end… but one does have other obligations to life (do I have my priorities straight?). Which i must admit was the best kisses, (or is that pkisses?) that i have ever shared.

So if you ever have a chance to kiss a smile it is worth the effort as a smile once kissed turns into laughter resulting the effortless creation of joy. Or at least that was my experience. I will be sure to repeat this as often as possible just to be sure that the results are consistent.

p

Wage love, be peace

Wage love

Now is the time to speak
while I still have a voice
for all those that cannot be heard
for those that have been silenced

By fear and by death.

War is manufactured and sold to us
in little sound bites of truth
repeated over and over

No need to ask more questions.

Trust in God.

We need to make them pay

for what they have done to us.

Shells are packaged like
shiny new i-pods
gift wrapped
with messages for the dead.

It's the same war,
it's been fought on many continents
over many decades,
run by the same 'filthy rich bastards'

Pretending to fight with each other

selling both sides arms
rather than share the earth’s natural recourses
with the rest of humanity

They own the media,
we own the truth.

They own the bombs and the planes,
the technology and destruction,
the torture and the shock,
the press and the print.

We are the poor, the dead and the dying
the ones living in fear
paying with our taxes and lives
killing our neighbours with our children.

9/11
Shock and Awe

 

The shock is wearing off
information is shock resistant
arm yourself
with the truth.

I speak for all those that have died
so I can eat cheap bananas.
Our skyscrapers reflect
their shanty town huts.

I cry for the dead children
in Afghanistan and Iraq
and the hatred
that their grieving families bare.

I take off my hat

for the soldiers that have died

believing they are serving

a noble cause.

I hang my head
for the shoes that I have worn
for the cloths that I wear

for the stocks that I buy.

I sing with all those
that now see the truth
after the dust has settled
and the shock has worn off.

 

I dance with the dead,
the terrorist and the soldiers
both abused by the lies of the leaders
with promises of 50 virgins or streets paved with gold.

 

I pray to the children
hungry on the streets
in a country ravaged by our richness.
Debt, pollution and poverty left in our wake.

 

I hold hands
with all those that will not pick up a gun
with all those that know;
War is not the answer. 

Be peace

... chills deep in my soul

I knew he was a creep when I shook his hand. I have met many high ranking people in the Military but I could tell this man was my mortal enemy when I looked into his eyes. He gave me the chills deep in my soul. 

I was called to the base for a film shoot. I was working for the Producer on a very big film. Big and green, they were blowing stuff up and setting it on fire. Like usual they were behind schedule. Nothing new to me, I have worked for the film industry before.

The Producer asked if I could set the tent up a 6 AM the next morning and have it ready to serve lunch under by noon. No problem I said. This was three days late from the initial set up time. I told him I would bring enough people to have the tent ready to seat 200 people by 9 AM. Then I said “zero nine hundred” just to be a smart ass in front of the military dude guy.

Then the Producer asked this macho military dude if he could have his troops ready for 9 AM the next day. The Military dude went on and on about how it was supposed to happen three days ago and he didn’t know if he could do it tomorrow. He made a list of problems and concerns. I thought what would happen to this guy in battle? Finally a woman in uniform spoke up that was quietly standing beside him and said confidently to the Producer, “no problem sir”.

She was a very attractive woman, a healthy happy Canadian female. Except that she was in the Air Force I could tell we would like each other. She had that look, that confidence. She looked at me and smiled. I wondered if she was single and if I had seen her profile on a dating site. She seemed familiar. I never fraternize with people that I meet at work… I was hoping that I had already made contact with her. (This dating site will be mentioned in other stories.)

Then the Producer told us that because of the type shoot he could not promise when he would be done. He asked me how long I needed to strike the tents. “Three hours” I told him. He asked how much warning I needed. I told him that if he paid me and my crew to be on standby we would be here in an hour or if we were not on call I then I would need four hours to call a crew in and get here. He took the four hour option and I gave him my card with my cell phone. Done.

Then he asked the military dude about the troops, that he would need them on call for the next two to three days depending on the weather and light. The military dude in his flight suit went on and on about what a problem this was. I was thinking again how this dude would be a big fail in a war. Finally the woman spoke up and said to the Producer, “not a problem sir”.

I went back to my truck and got in. My employee served in the military. “Do you know who you were talking too?”

“Ya, some arrogant cocky asshole that could not find his way out of the officer’s mess tent without that woman beside him.”

“That was the Base Commander; no one gets to talk to the Base Commander.” 

“Well, he’s a creep; just here to hang with the movie stars I bet.”

The Base Commander is now a very famous “not” Colonel.  

And I think the female officer was one of his victims.

The Art of Making Love

I met an Asian woman that was studying English as a second language at our local college. We dated a few times and our different cultures always gave us lots to talk about. In her language she said there was no term for “fuck” the way we in North America use it when we are angry. The word they used for “fuck”, which I have now forgotten, could be translated to mean “the art of making love”.

She was short and sweet and fit so nicely into my arms, our kisses were soft and gentle and delicious. She said she loved my gentle ways. I was so looking forward to making art with her. We got along so well.

She said I was different from all the North American men that she had met. She said her friends called North American men either “coke” or “fuck”. I suggested they could also call them “beer”. She laughed. I think I came up with a few other names for them. 

I told her that she could call me “fuck” but to never call me “coke”. I was trying to make a joke and point out that I do not drink coke or beer but I would love to be called “the art of making love”. I told her that buying a coke was against my religion. Just like shopping at Walmart. 

She said that she had dishonoured me and that she could never see me again. 

And that was the last I ever saw of her.

hop skip jump

hop hop

I trust that I know more than I know now. So now I jump “with reckless abandon” (Castaneda) into everything once I have pondered all the options. I am no longer afraid. No longer afraid of what lies under the surface because I know I act out of love and not out of some other “need” hidden under the shell of who I am. I have “absolute trust in the goodness of the earth”. I know I am “one of the ones we have been waiting for” (Alice Walker). And I know myself very very well...

hop   

Even when I fall off my horse he stops and stands beside me. Not falling means not trying. It means staying in your safety zone.

And I love flying.

I no longer “fall in love”.

I “fly in love”.

Landing is after all just a controlled crash. And I have always thrived (not just survived) from the experiences. “If you are prepared to fly, you must be prepared to fall”. (I will have to find that song again!) And if you are prepared to fall... you must be prepared to crash.

hop

It’s a style of writing I came up with years ago. To simulate how we hop from one thought to the next. Much like an i-pod on shuffle. To be as un-academic as possible. To be as organic as possible.

hop  

It’s also my practice of being ready for the next challenge, to have a solid launching pad (or is that pod?) to take off from and land on. One must have a solid pad (or is that pod?) to blast off from and know the base of who and what I am to have a place to land and recuperate on... to get ready for the next blast off...

The pad (or is that pod?) is named that because it is swampy, organic, ancient and at the same time like a modern launch pad, cutting edge, a place to blast off from with all the aids of current information and technology. It’s also a place to wrap myself in. To morph into and out of. To grow a new tail... to lose one. A pad (or is that a pod?) on which to rest while my new wings dry.

skip

We once thought that DNA was solid, a compete sequence limiting us what we can be. Our genetic fate. We thought of it as read-only disc. Now we see it as more of a read-write disc and we can influence what is written and therefore what is read.

We cannot change our DNA, we can however effect which strands we activate and use to grow from by changing the wrapper.

We can change the wrapper in which we hold our DNA. We can accept the wrapper we are given, one made out of Chief Boyardee, GMO’s and hydrogenated oils or we can build our wrapper out of the organic goodness of the earth. 

   

It may not save us from getting cancer or some other disease but it does give us a ‘chance’. A chance to...

jump

be the hop,

paul

Dates 101.1 The River Elf

The River Elf.

She loved rivers so I knew the perfect place for our first date. A walk along the river.

Again I met this wonderful woman on-line. She was studying to be a healer. 

She was very fit and healthy, cute and short… my kinda woman! And was learning natural healing.

I took her for a walk at my farm. As we walked I was trying to find something in common to talk about so I began asking about all plants that we saw along out walk.

I asked her to find a plant for me.

“Find your own plant” she told me.

So I reached down and picked a small yellow flower.

“Here” I said, “tell me about this one”.

“That’s my flower!” she yelled, “you’re a fucking asshole.”

 She got in her car and drove away.

 St. John's Wort

101 Dates

101 Dates and the search for love

Not sure where to start because I don’t remember my first date! Well, I do remember my first date but not my first current date since my last relationship ended. So I think I’ll start with the women who was also on a quest of 101 dates to find the right guy of which I was one – just not the number 101!

I met her on-line and we emailed a lot. She began phoning me and we talked many times. She ran a small business and I was able to help her with some staff problems. She was very spiritual and a health freak – so we got along great until one day she told me that buying “freshly squeezed” orange juice was not a good choice for my daughter. She was right of course! After that she disappeared.

The next spring I heard a story on CBC radio called “freshly squeezed” and now I understood exactly what she meant. The orange juice industry was lying. About the same time I contacted another person on-line. She instantly wanted to meet me. We arranged to meet the next Sunday. I told her that was easy!

We met at a spot between our cities and she wanted me to take me to the beach. It was May 24 long weekend. As we drove she told me the she was the one that was phoning me the year before and even though she had gone away and dated many men she thought of me every day.

Before the afternoon was over we were walking hand in hand and sharing gentle kisses. She loved my gentle kisses and touch. We had such a strong attraction and connection. It was so easy.

She explained that she was seeking someone and that she was not ready to settle down and that she was trying to meet as many men as possible and develop a friendship first. We met many nights and went for many walks; she told me the story of her life. It was an amazing story of trouble and love. She shared everything with me. We had the most wonderful times together. Our kisses were – magic. Our bodies wanted each other.

She told me that I used one word over and over and that she wanted to open a dance-health club and call it that. I couldn’t guess that word. It was “Thrive”. She called me all the time and a talked about how much she wanted to see me. We were always making plans to go dancing but they never worked out.

One weekend we had a date to go horseback riding but there was a thunder storm so we went to her place instead. She wanted to get naked and for me to give her a massage. We spent all day naked kissing and cuddling and eating and talking. I gave her three massages. First I gave her a muscle massage. Then I gave her an energy massage… then later I gave her a sensual massage…

After midnight she passed me a condom and asked me to make love to her. I couldn’t do it. I made a promise to the world to only make love when I am in love – in a relationship… I held her as we fell to sleep.

We hung out a lot together. My daughter was in a play and I took her to it. In the middle of the play she leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. I don’t know why but that has always been one of the most memorable kisses that I have ever had.

On my birthday I was alone, my daughter was in a play and I was drunk on reading Tom Robin’s “B is for Beer” with all those pheromone Fairies flying between us I called her and told her I loved her.

I never saw her again.

Where oh where

Did my little blog go? Been off for while and tried to post something last week.. Where did it go?

Blood soaked heart

Blood soaked heart.

I was at a party with my horse in a dream. I was leading her around without a lead. She was prancing and showing off and loving the attention. There was a beautiful young athletic looking woman there that following her around and finally got on her bareback. Later I saw her in a room shooting up. She didn’t see me but later I saw her with a bloody nose. It wasn’t from being hit; it was from all the drugs she had been doing. She let me clean the blood off her face and nose. I cleaned her face with a soft wet white towel and rinsed the blood out in the sink. A few hours later she was shooting up again between her legs. She was naked in room full of people.

She saw me looking at her. “No one fucking cares” she said.

As the party was ending her nose was bleeding again. I began to clean it up but then she began bleeding from her eyes. I was wiping the blood from her face and told her she was too young for this, it would kill her.

“You’re such a fucking romantic” she said and leaned into my chest and let me hug her.

“You think you can save the world but you can’t you know.”

 I said perhaps I could save her.

“Why, so I can live and watch the world die? I don’t fucking care, I just want to get high.” She was crying on my chest. “Look, I’ve ruined your T-shirt.”

I told her I always ruin my new shirts, I can never keep them clean. I told her not to worry about it.

“Look” she said, “I bled in the shape of a heart on your shirt.”